have been out for most of the time.
going out with different guys,
to experience the perfect life of
SINGLEHOOD!
going through so many different guys,
should say most of them are
of the same kind.
on fri, i finally met up with ches.
he really proved to me that
gentleman DOES EXIST!
helping me to carry my stuffs,
letting me go first,
when i'm cold he offer me his jacket,
even cover for me,
shown me the beauty of night view.
seriously ches, i'm wow-ed by u.
never had i experienced
this kind of "date" before.
so ches, keep up the good job.
u will find ur mrs right soon.
<3 u bro =)
9:29 AM
should i feel happy about it?
or
should i feel sad about it?
4 days only
and it's over for good.
ha!
we ain't right for each other
all the best for the upcoming r/s
after wad, 3years
i finally stepped out from that nightmare
yet i thought that
i could get over it.
thanks for giving me false hope.
u drove me back down to
another nightmare.
wad happened to the promise?
it's all nothing
but stupidity.
seriously mich, how fucking dumb can you get?
i feel like soooooooooooooo sad
but, why cant i shed a single tear?
why cant i cry at all?
ha. wh n wc must be right.
i'm a fucking coldblooded queen
it must be.
if not why cant i cry?
i must not cry
i must not whine
i must not throw away my pride
to retain what is not mine.
even how pathetic i might get
i still have my pride to hold on to.
he's just nothing
but a guy.
a promise breaker guy.
FUCK IT ALL!
6:48 AM
just soooooooooooo feel like crying.
if you don't trust me, wad for be with me?
are you playing with me feeling?
tarnishing all that?
such nonsense.
just together for few days
yet have conflict.
i wonder, can i hold on any more longer?
i have absolute trust in you.
if you don't have, please tell me.
i will let you go then.
i don't see a point in forcing us together
if we were to keep having such meaningless conflicts.
maybe you ain't the right one for me
maybe i ain't the right one for you.
maybe we just ain't right for each other.
maybe by letting go, it would prove to be the right choice.
so many maybe, so many thoughts.
am so tired.
9:53 AM
been doing lots of thinking recently.
just wish that, it would all stop.
time to give up.
don't treat me so good.
i'm scared i will lose my stance.
很爱很爱你，所以愿意舍得让你，往更多幸福的地方飞去。
很爱很爱你，只有让你拥有爱情，我才安心。
你多一滴的温柔，就是对我多一滴的伤害。
你多一滴的关怀，就是对我多一滴的伤心。
你温柔的拥抱我，只让我更加的眷恋你。
我不求什么，只求你不要对我太好太温柔太关心。
我并不想太伤心，对你有太多的牵挂。
7:04 AM
笨死了，我真是笨死了。
简直到了无药可救的境界。
明知故犯，还陷下去。
老早已停动的心，却因你而跳动。
只求我的心，不再为你而心动。
9:16 AM
Firstly I wanna say, Happy 21st Birthday to Myself! Officially 21 years old already. Feel so old. Hahas. Moreover it's been real long since I last blogged. Been very busy, slogging my life out or wad la. Hahas. Ok, I gonna blogged about my 21st Birthday Celebration. =D
23/5/10- Day One- Asked Owen to accompany me go shopping for last minute food around 11+ am. After that, Owen, me n mum took cab down to DownTown East. We arrived around 1.30pm to check in. Went in, put everything in fridge and rest. Owen wanna slp, but I keep disturbing him on bed, made him can't sleep at all. Hahas. Den went to meet my cousin Ying at Tamp to buy cake. Ordered 3kg's Chocolate Fudge Cake. Damn chocolate-y but costly. After that, went back to room to slack awhile. Waited for Owen to change clothes, den we went to Wild Wild Wet to play! Hoho! 1st time went there to play, super shiok. Played till super wet den go back to room to change clothes n bathe. we were there waiting for people to arrive. Owen had to start the fire cos I, being me, is super lazy de, plus I don't know how to start also. Den I was there, busy lying down on bed n rotting away. Hahas. Mum n Bro arrived around 7+pm. Fire already started but too small. So while waiting for the fire to get bigger, I'm still slacking away. By 9+ Des reached. Followed by Liyan n her baobei Alvin. After that is Wilson who arrived around 12.15am. Day One is seriously tired. Cos people studied n booked out of camp. Den we do the room thing. Tired. Around 2+ am we all went lala-land le. hahas =x
24/4/10- Day Two- Woke up around 9.30am. Want to disturb frens, but Liyan n Alvin woke up le. So juz disturb Wilson, Des n Owen. Owen really slp like a pig, I kicked him, pulled him, also nvr wake up. LMAO! After everybody has woke up, we all brushed up and went to mac for breakfast. Owen n my bro went to carry mahjong table. lOls. Afternoon went Ehub! awhile to jubeat, den took cab down to TM with Ying to take my cake while Des, Owen, Liyan n Alvin played pool. Came back, it's raining like shit. Bro's friend was there. I literally ignored him cos in bad mood. Drank 2 bottles of vodka mix in 10mins, face bloody red. lOls. Somemore bad mood. EeMing started fire for me with belly. Real nice of them. And fuck my bro for using things to hit my ass. Real pain, and I cried. =(
Wiwi n William arrived. Food not ready yet. lOls. And they got places to go off to, so they left very quickly. More people started to pour in. My cousins and their families. My colleagues. Seriously is OMG la. But quite a few are unable to make it due to NS stuffs and work. So what to do? lOls. BBQ was fun. But i'm not the one to bbq. Hahas. During the whole evening, I'm so busy walking in and out of the room to fetch people. So my legs are kinda tired. I love all the presents ok. SO THANKS TO THOSE WHO HAD GIVEN ME PRESENTS!
Shall skip the bbq part, mostly are nothings, except to camwhore la. =)
Here comes the part whereby I got raped by Liyan, Owen, Alvin, Nicholas and Belly. Namely RAPIST NUMBER ONE, RAPIST NUMBER TWO, RAPIST NUMBER THREE, RAPIST NUMBER FOUR, RAPIST NUMBER FIVE RESPECTIVELY. =D
Went outside with Kit n Ying around 11+pm to check up on Owen, Liyan, Alvin n Nicholas, who were outside playing stack-o. Sat there, watched them play, den around 12+ Kit announced that she wanna go home. So me and my bodyguards (Owen, Liyan, Alvin, Nicholas n Belly) walked Kit to the taxi stand. While walking, Liyan came and asked if Kit had a BF. I got a feeling Nicholas was interested in her, hence I said yes. Cos Kit doesn't like this kind of thing. Somemore she has her own problems to settle. After awhile, Owen came up to me n told me he gonna do a forfeit. I was like, yea u do I watch. But when I turned back again, I saw his guilty look, I knew the forfeit was on me. So I just clung to Kit and walked with her. After seeing Kit board the cab, I turned towards Liyan they all, and I RAN for all I can. But Owen idiot la, caught up with me so damn fast and suan me say, "see who can run faster? you or me?" @#$%^&*
I was so bloody tired, I hid behind the pillar. Round 2 running start again. This time round I screamed n ran at the same time. Basically I could heard Liyan they all laughing like mad behind. And the most stupid thing I did was I ran n hid in the toilet. The rest were camping out waiting for me. While in the toilet, I heard somebody entered, den heard Liyan called my name. So I stood on the toilet bowl n looked up when I heard the stall next to mine closed. But there's nothing so I relaxed abit. Den I heard the stall closed again next to me, so I decided to creep out. But alas! Who knew that the moment I walked out, Liyan walked out also. My face was like crestfallen. Liyan assured me that only Alvin was outside. But I wasn't that sure so I walked slowly behind her. When i reached the entrance, I peeked out, saw Owen they all. Asked them to move back before I went out. After I went out, I asked Owen to move back somemore. Den we all walked through the check in point. The 2nd stupid thing I did was, I backed to the wall.
Belly walked to the exit n sealed off my runoff. Den I took off my slippers, ready to make my run. Just when I started running off, Liyan n Nicholas grabbed my both arms tightly. I thought that GONE CASE, really GG.COM liao. So i just gave up, and plop my butt down on the floor and rest. Cos my legs really jellified le. Den I really slopped there and stunned. I saw Owen walking towards me, and before I knew it, I was already screaming my head and ass off while at the same time, Owen grabbed my arms and shouted "happy Birthday Michelle" which he was supposedly to hug me. After that, Liyan they all walked away, while I still sat there n carrying on stunning. Nicholas n Owen had to pull me to my feet. While walking back to room I almost tripped over my own feet. lOls. Thinking back of this raping part was damn ridiculous.
Back in room really tired. Cos sweat like hell. Sat in the room awhile, rotted awhile den we decided to head towards the beach to slack. While walking to the beach, I'm still in the stunning mode. Really stunned to the max lor. Throughout the whole time when Liyan they all were talking to me, I'm there stoning away, like no reaction de. lOls. We found a spot to sit at the beach. Nicholas n Liyan started to give riddle n lame jokes. Others laughed but I still stoned. lOls. Around 3am I started to gear up, and start my nonsenses again, while Owen went into hibernating mode. We crapped awhile more, den head back to chalet around 4am.
Eeming they all were still playing mahjong when we reached. I sat on the bed, hugging the pillow and almost dozed off. Den I moved behind Owen and rested my head on his back to sleep, while my body was against Eeming de. lOls. But my cousin n aunty came n dragged me to the other room to sleep. The room was quite warm, but my aunty covered me with blanket. I kicked away, she covered for me, I kicked away, she covered for me, I kicked away, she covered for me. In the end I gave up, just slept with the blanket on. Around 6+am I woke up cos really warm. Found out I'm sweating like nobody's business. Alvin and Nicholas made a move to went off first. Liyan went to bathe. I told Owen the pillow too soft, sleep till my neck ache. He really buddy sia, just tell me that I can sleep on his shoulder. lOls. I said no need, den he slept on my bed. I kicked him wake up, asked him go the other room to sleep. By that time Liyan was out, so asked her come over. Liyan, Owen and me slept together on 2 beds. Liyan and me were busy talking away den after awhile I heard a very loud snore, den I knew that she had fallen asleep. lOls. Den i proceed to sleep. The air con was damn cooling. Super shiok lor. But when I woke up around 9.30am, I saw Liyan wore Owen's jacket. lOls. I was like, got that cold meh. Hahas. Den we went to bathe n check out around 10.30am.
But seriously I enjoyed myself. Though I had my ups n downs during the 3D2N, but it really was fun. Thanks to those who attend my chalet, especially my RAPIST NUMBER ONE N RAPIST NUMBER TWO. =D
Trix aunty called me at 00.00midnight sharp on 26/04/2010 to wish me happy birthday from phil. Bagi was late in his sms, Trix beat him with her call. Hahas. Eric was down with high fever for nearly 4days. But he woke up especially just now and called me just to wish me happy birthday. And asked me go out again. Aww Eric u are damn sweet. But must take care ok?
Ok shall stop here. Very long post I know. =D
Shall blog again next time when free. =D
Labels: My 21st Birthday Celebration
11:40 AM
It's been quite a long time since I blogged. To cut it short, I'm very, very busy working. And busy being sick and all. Kids get sick, and within the school the virus do spread around. Hence I get sick. =(
CNY is ok. Dance around with kids, played with them, and that's CNY celebration in school. Come to think of it, it's quite simple as kids do get contented with the basic things like, games and chocolate.
Course is starting in April. Hope it will not get any more delay. Plus my super stupid plus retard boss totally forgotten to inform me that I need to get a medical checkup form printed out before I can go n register myself for the healthcheck. DUMBASS!
So I wasted my time to wake up early in the morning, and reached the checkup venue and bump wall. KNS! But it's ok, I got my own things instead. Like buying my DVD to watch. Totally shopping time for me. =)
Juz wanna say, I'm so busy. And please, March Hols faster come. I seriously need u! =x
2:07 AM
